Mar 25, 2012

giving all my secrets away // love that overcomes.

this is going to be one of those posts where I will not use fancy words {in which you have to fetch your dictionaries} or descriptive adjectives, but will attempt to write my feelings as bluntly and as accurately as possible. I do not believe it is in my ability to write exactly what I am feeling, but I hope that it will encourage you on your walk heavenward. 

sometimes, my emotions become jumbled and mashed together that at points in the day I sway from feeling hurt and depressed to angry and disappointed. confusion sweeps over me and the line between what my mind thinks and what my heart feels becomes even more distinct. I suppose that comes with being a female, but sometimes no matter what I say or think aloud, or what anybody else tells me, it never puts my aching heart at ease.    

when things don't go the way I should like with people, sometimes I wonder if it's my fault. I invest so much love, time, and effort into a relationship, and people disappoint me, leaving me to wonder: will you be there for me tomorrow? will you give me your shoulder for me to shed a tear? it stings miserably when people slough you - I know, I've been there. I am there. I don't want to be that person. I always want to be there for you, but sometimes it hurts when you throw that love back in my face.

that's not true love, though. true Love is something that does not waver. it's unselfish. it never fears. it never fails. Love is something that does not matter if it is returned. yes, there is pain and tears - and sometimes little comfort - but Love looks beyond the pain, faults, and the injustice. Love steadily moves forward.  

indeed, 'tis easier to love someone who loves in return, but remember what Christ took upon Himself, all in the act of love. a deep powerful Love from the beginning of time that chose to be mocked, whipped, bruised, spit upon, shunned, buffeted all for our sake. a deep and powerful Love we but little deserve and can little comprehend. every offense I feel little compares to what Christ endured, yet He still cares and understands and loves me. for being me.  

if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.   
{John 4:11} 

Love: so simple, yet so hard. :)

the girl in the garden. 


  1. beautiful, Grace. but I am sorry you're going through such a hard time. i'm still including you in my prayers -- keep your chin up!


  2. This post really hits home with me.. I have had people recently that, like you said, you pour SO much love and work at having a relationship with them, and then they all the sudden change on you, and you do wonder if they will be there for you tomorrow.. But, Oh,the love of Christ is a wonderful thing!;)

  3. oh, Grace! I know exactly what you mean.
    loved reading this post, love is so hard at times, and at other times its rather easy and simple.

  4. My heart aches for you, my dear! And I wish I could be there to comfort you, to be a listening ear. I even wish I had the right words to say, but I don't.
    Just remember that there is only One person Who is capable of loving unconditionally. No human on earth can do it fully, and there will be times when we fail... many times. The only way we can endure that sort of thing is found in one little word: Forgiveness. It is hard sometimes to do that, but the effect afterwards is so much better than trying to hold onto the hurt. (Which, you must admit, we do sometimes!)
    I pray that you will find comfort in Jesus and He will hold you in His arms.

    Throwing hugs and kisses your way,
    The Lilac Bud Gal

  5. Weird. I've been thinking about this too. Beautiful post!


  6. Dear Grace,

    Thank you for your lovely comment on my blog! Every sweet little note brightens my day! I think we are past due on talking...Skype has been giving me issues lately, so could we maybe phone? I think it would do us both good. :) I am feeling somewhat the same way lately. I give love, yet sometimes it doesn’t give back. But then I am reminded of Christ’s love. I didn’t have anything to give Him, and I was in sin, yet He still loved me. May this push and encourage us to love others--even when there is no love in return. Remeber 1 Corithians 13.
    Times when we are in the valley are beautiful in an odd sort of way, because Christ is molding us to be more like Him, and is giving us perfect peace through Him.
    I will continue to pray for you! Only Christ can satisfy and give us real joy! He is all we need.

    writing her thoughts at: Maidens of Virtue

  7. Dearest Grace,
    I am so sorry that you have been going through such a difficult time lately. I hope that everything will work out well in the end, indeed, I KNOW it will all work out! For what does it say in Scripture? "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28. Remember this, dear one.

    I LOVE you :) and will continue to pray for you~

    Your Friend,

  8. I will continue to pray for you.
    It is hard to have some one be unkind
    and some times down right nasty. I hope that
    you will find rest in the Saviors arms He will
    take care of you.

  9. Oh, yes. This hurts. So badly. I'll be praying for you, dear! Thank you so much for pouring so much of yourself in this post. It must have taken a lot of courage.


  10. Amen. I needed this post today, Grace. I feel the same so often and that quote from tumblr describes my feelings perfectly.

    Thank you so much for this beautiful post and I'll be praying for you, Grace.

    God Bless!

    In Christ,

  11. Yes you are right, and so wise, REAL TRUE LOVE DOESN'T DO THAT, but humans do, that is the key! We are such a fallen people, b/c of what happened in the Garden, so we are a broken people, and we hurt one another. The only perfect love is THE CROSS, and Jesus on it. And all we can do is replicate that, and forgive others when they don't, and let God forgive US, when we don't.

    I'm sorry you have been's so hard, this life. Your writing is beautiful...

    with love

  12. I needed this today Grace! Thank you, for expressing your thoughts and emotions very freely. :)

    1 Corinthians 13


  13. Hello, Grace :) My name is Grace too, but some people call me Gracie, as on my blogs. This poem is beautiful, and oh so true. Love is sacrifice, but it is the most rewarding thing on this earth. Lovely, my dear, simply lovely.