Refocus|a spring haitus.

i. inspiration {or lack thereof}

I have learned that the month of march has a clever skill in stowing inspiration away with her frequent icy mornings, dull happenings, flighty weather fits, and empty calendar events. 'tis an in between month. after spring's parade has made her announcement in february, the earth holds her breath in march awaiting for something vivacious and new. and then april alights. the air heavy with rain stimulates inspiration so much so that one can't help but hold onto it until another "uninspired state" comes in the future. 

ii. a return to simplicity

the other afternoon, I had a lovely long chat with a good friend of mine. in fresh air thick with spring sunshine, we were dreaming of how lovely it would be to someday own a plot of land which would allow a jersey cow for raw milk and rabbits for spinning yarn and an all year garden and simply living a simple old-fashioned life. a return to simplicity. but these past few days I have been reflecting upon our conversation {and the main basis thereof}, and thought that a return to simplicity doesn't have to be a future reverie but an outlook of life in the present. indeed, we don't have the land for a milk cow and although my rabbit sheds like crazy homemade yarn isn't going to be spun anytime soon, but we have so much that God has given us; and we make so little time to savor each simple moment. and of course keeping dreams alive is part of living, true living, but living in the clouds {at least for me} leaves me restless and doesn't allow me to appreciate present beauty.       

iii. real living

lemme be honest for a moment {run now while you still can to avoid the following lengthy lecture that makes little to no sense}: blogging and I have been a bit at odds of late. really life itself is screaming to me to be shifted. to be viewed differently. to be lived differently. I want to try my hand at a variety of intricate beautiful things that I want to apply to my blogging but at the same time, the time it takes to blog hasn't allowed me to do {make up your mind silly blog!!!}. gardening. fashion. living a full and healthy life. the value of documenting for myself and truly myself. - the hill of opportunity has been scaled but what view on top remains to be discovered. and sometimes, in the midst of the din of determining whether or not to climb that hill, it feels like I don't know if I am either trying to impress or express. I want to appreciate art for myself and not to impress peers, and truly find the style{s} I'm most comfortable with. maybe blurry will be my style. or sharp as a tack. clean and organized vs. insanely messy? old-fashioned or modern? heaven knows right now. but I want to change all that. I want to change being so unsure of myself and where I want to go and what I want to be. I want to be inspired and go adventuring in my own backyard and store a myriad of stories to tell when I return. I want to refocus. 

so I will bid adieu for a time in hopes that all of you have a lovely spring and easter. 

xx, m'lovlies.  

The Girl in her Garden

postscript :: don't be shy to leave a question or two while I'm gone as I hope to film a Q & A vlog pretty soon. ;)