my mind is a nebulas & my thoughts are constellations that i can't hope to comprehend.

there is triumph announced in the declaration, "I am afraid no longer," but there is so much bravery breathed when someone says simply, "I am afraid." not expecting judgements or relief. simply trusting that the world will stir in recognition at the sound of three simple words. "I am afraid."

and to be frightfully honest, I am. I'm afraid. I am afraid you're going to forget me. I'm afraid that we are forgetting each other already. each day steals another one of my precious memories of you. each day steals us farther from who we used to be. I'm afraid of what these years do to us. no matter what we promise aloud, they etch us. they change us. they pull us apart. they mold us. one day, i feel we will meet each other and never breath a hello, we'll be strangers with a lot of memories flashing in our  eyes in that brief moment of recognition. each day I hold my breath in anticipation of seeing you again; each day I hold my breath in anxiety wondering how much this year has changed the both of us. 

"where are you running to?" you may ask now. the sweetest word in the english language is "belonging." and i guess that's where i'm headed. whether or not these stars will always lead me back to you is what i await to discover.
xx